I caught myself thinking : Why care for people when they don't appreciate your care? Worse still, when they don't even bother that you care. But then again, caring and loving others should not expect anything in return.
Loving and caring for people is what i really like doing. It's like a passion. A passion that burns inside me, that makes me feel happy when someone feels cared for, sometimes even making me cry. Although I have failed many times and it is difficult, but having this passion is something that i really thank God for. I hope and pray that He will enlarge my heart to love and care. That I will love and care like how He does. And that this passion will never die.
Lord, I look to You for strength.
p/s Now I know how it feels koko Jit Pang =P.. Hahahaa......
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Friday, March 13, 2009
Results From UPSR till STPM
Looking back at my results taking experiences throughout all these years. I am truly grateful that God has bring me this far. He helped me grow in the area of rejoicing and giving thanks in all circumstances.
UPSR :
5A, 1B, 1C
I was super worried when I went to get my results.
I was like : God! Why did you give me these kind of results? Headmaster, teachers, friends and myself have put a lot of expectations on me. They think that I would surely get straight 'A's. But I did not get the results people wanted me to get. The worst thing is the B and C are my Bahasa Malaysia papers and I always score A for those two papers. I was sad because back then, all I focused on was the B and C that i got. Not the 5'A's that God has graciously given to me.
PMR :
8A
I was worried when I went to take my results.
I was overjoyed! I got straight 'A's. It was easy to praise God and give Him thanks. But I know I have not really been tested in character.
SPM :
8A, 2B, 1C
I wasn't very worried but i couldn't smile when I went to get my results. Too nervous.
It was during this period that I know the lesson that I have been hearing all this while, which is giving thanks to God in all circumstances will be tested if I really am able to do so. At first I was able to, but when I really sit down and look at the slip, I was a bit disappointed because the C that I got was my favourite subject. I told myself after that, a C is better than a D. What were you thinking? Give thanks!!!
STPM :
1A, 3C
I was very nervous but after that no feeling when I went to take my results.
This result is the lousiest among all of my other results. But this was the time when I was the happiest. Because I know it is what God wants me to get. It was a gift from Him. It may not be the best results in many people's eyes. But God gave me this because He knows what is best for me. As He gives the best to everyone. I chose to see it this way : Hey! I passed every subjectleh... And I got 1A somemore. Thank You, Lord!. I thought I was out of my mind when i so openly showed people my results. I thought I would never do such a thing, but God enabled me too. I have learnt the lesson that He wanted to teach me all these years!!!
Haha! Looking back... I do not know why the 'C's like me so muchlah. Haha... But I believe the 'C's have helped me grow in my character. Hehe... Praise God!
UPSR :
5A, 1B, 1C
I was super worried when I went to get my results.
I was like : God! Why did you give me these kind of results? Headmaster, teachers, friends and myself have put a lot of expectations on me. They think that I would surely get straight 'A's. But I did not get the results people wanted me to get. The worst thing is the B and C are my Bahasa Malaysia papers and I always score A for those two papers. I was sad because back then, all I focused on was the B and C that i got. Not the 5'A's that God has graciously given to me.
PMR :
8A
I was worried when I went to take my results.
I was overjoyed! I got straight 'A's. It was easy to praise God and give Him thanks. But I know I have not really been tested in character.
SPM :
8A, 2B, 1C
I wasn't very worried but i couldn't smile when I went to get my results. Too nervous.
It was during this period that I know the lesson that I have been hearing all this while, which is giving thanks to God in all circumstances will be tested if I really am able to do so. At first I was able to, but when I really sit down and look at the slip, I was a bit disappointed because the C that I got was my favourite subject. I told myself after that, a C is better than a D. What were you thinking? Give thanks!!!
STPM :
1A, 3C
I was very nervous but after that no feeling when I went to take my results.
This result is the lousiest among all of my other results. But this was the time when I was the happiest. Because I know it is what God wants me to get. It was a gift from Him. It may not be the best results in many people's eyes. But God gave me this because He knows what is best for me. As He gives the best to everyone. I chose to see it this way : Hey! I passed every subjectleh... And I got 1A somemore. Thank You, Lord!. I thought I was out of my mind when i so openly showed people my results. I thought I would never do such a thing, but God enabled me too. I have learnt the lesson that He wanted to teach me all these years!!!
Haha! Looking back... I do not know why the 'C's like me so muchlah. Haha... But I believe the 'C's have helped me grow in my character. Hehe... Praise God!
Thursday, March 12, 2009
An emo post...
Today was a tiring yet fulfilling day for me...
I went out in the morning to support the SPMers, giving them support, helping them, encouraging them, etc.. After that, i went home and managed to call one of them. Then, I went out again to celebrate with them. Then, I went out again to catch up with somebody else. I came home and got a call from another person. I was supposed to go out at night too. But couldn't make it.
I only experienced one day of how a youth pastor/worker do everyday. But I felt drained emotionally and mentally. It will be worse if somebody doesn't listen and obey you when you really really want to help them so much. Now, I understand how youth pastors and youth workers feel. All they want is to see people doing well in life, character and their walk with God. What they want doesn't do them any good. But the people they care for. It hurts them when the young people are hurt. I know that I still do not fully understand what they feel and what they really do. But this is a small part that I observed and experienced. I thought to myself : Is this what I really want to do in life in the future? I know I have a heart and passion for young people. But this is so tiring... I am just 20 years old, but I already cannot take it. When I am 40 can I? But deep inside me I know these excuses should not kill my passion.
Lord, please lead my steps. I only want to do Your Will.
To all the youth pastors and youth workers out there :
I really appreciate what all of you do. I really respect all of you. May God bless all of you abundantly! May your passion for the young people will never grow cold!
I went out in the morning to support the SPMers, giving them support, helping them, encouraging them, etc.. After that, i went home and managed to call one of them. Then, I went out again to celebrate with them. Then, I went out again to catch up with somebody else. I came home and got a call from another person. I was supposed to go out at night too. But couldn't make it.
I only experienced one day of how a youth pastor/worker do everyday. But I felt drained emotionally and mentally. It will be worse if somebody doesn't listen and obey you when you really really want to help them so much. Now, I understand how youth pastors and youth workers feel. All they want is to see people doing well in life, character and their walk with God. What they want doesn't do them any good. But the people they care for. It hurts them when the young people are hurt. I know that I still do not fully understand what they feel and what they really do. But this is a small part that I observed and experienced. I thought to myself : Is this what I really want to do in life in the future? I know I have a heart and passion for young people. But this is so tiring... I am just 20 years old, but I already cannot take it. When I am 40 can I? But deep inside me I know these excuses should not kill my passion.
Lord, please lead my steps. I only want to do Your Will.
To all the youth pastors and youth workers out there :
I really appreciate what all of you do. I really respect all of you. May God bless all of you abundantly! May your passion for the young people will never grow cold!
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